Boys are back in school! This time of year gives me as much a feeling of starting over and renewal and new goals and all that as January 1. I still do New Year’s Resolutions. But I also think about how I want to change and improve every time a new school year rolls around. I’m convinced this school year is going to be extra awesome because Robyn is my inspiration.
(I’m going to include videos for all my favorite Robyn songs, because I have some friends who don’t know her! Listen and enjoy, mis amigas!)
Nate and I went to see Robyn and Royksopp on Sunday. They played at the Pritzker Pavilion in Millennium Park. I do love that pavilion and the way the lights interact with all that crazy curved metal. It felt like a pretty nice night, for August —- warm and slightly humid, though not miserable. But by the end of the show, after dancing for two hours, I was a hot, sweaty mess and ready for air conditioning. Totally worth it.
When I was a kid I didn’t really get into the whole pop star worship. I didn’t have posters on my wall of singers or bands (except for one vintage David Bowie poster). But I think I thought I was too cool for groups that were popular in the 90’s. I didn’t have any boy band crushes; I actively fought forming them. I wasn’t obsessed with any diva superstar type singers. I was pretty preoccupied with whether what I liked was edgy enough or different enough from what most of my peers were into. Which meant not a lot of pop / dance stuff in my cd player. Also I always had to play it cool and not like anybody too TOO much. Now, in my 30’s I think I am making up for it. I am completely obsessed and in love with Robyn. I mean, I really strongly love her, and that feels weird, but I no longer care to fight it. I’m good with it. I embrace it. I’m old enough to like what I like now and not worry where it rates on some invisible cool meter. I have similarly strong feelings for Beyonce and Sia. Although music-wise, Robyn is probably my favorite. The first time I saw Robyn was when she was promoting Body Talk. She performed Dancing on my Own on a late show, maybe Letterman. And I was immediately like WHO. IS. THIS. I. LOVE. HER.
Things I love about Robyn: she is cute, but also fit and powerful. She loves her fans. She wasn’t happy with her label so she started her own. She dances sort of awkwardly but awesomely. Live, she dances a LOT. (She also did a lot of dancey squats and crunches on stage. If she had a workout video I would be all over that. But I digress.) Her songs are the very best belt-it-out anthems. Hair. (platinum pixie or mullet, equally awesome). Insane outfits. She exudes complete body confidence. I guess that’s it. I just love her. I was freaking out at this concert because she was so awesome.
I have to say, too, that Nate is the best for going with me. He knows and likes a couple Robyn songs but isn’t a crazy fan like me. Still, he was happy to go with me and stand and dance along. That is a good husband, right there. Reminds me of the time he went to see the Veronica Mars movie with me, even though he was not obsessed with that show like I was. I love him. He earned a billion best-husband points for taking me to that concert. I owe you one, babe. Dawn of Midi?
So the show was great. She played most of my favorite songs. The only one I really wish she would have played was Dream On. The concert was the night before the first day of school, and while I was watching Robyn be amazing, I was getting motivated to be awesome this school year. Robyn live helped me get pumped to:
-find a little job
-continue to work hard creatively
-love my family
I’m so lucky to spend as much time at home as I do. I want to make the most of it, so this year I am determined to act like I have a job: get myself exercised, showered, and dressed by 8:00 am and get to “work” on quilts and other projects. If I get a part time job, I will have to work harder to find time to reach my creative goals. But I can do it.
I love this song Monument, which is one of the collaborative songs she did with Royksopp. The melody and lyrics are so beautiful and I love the saxophone solo in the middle. It was inspired by sculpture artist Juliana Cerqueira Leite, and concerns itself with artistic intent and legacy, as Robyn sings lines like “Make a space for my body… this will be my monument / This will be my beacon when I’m gone.” I think all makers are concerned with legacy and I am no different. “I will let this monument / represent a moment of my life.” This is how I feel about every project I tackle and finish. Mindfully living in the moment is a challenge for all humans. I feel it keenly when I have so many ideas and so little time. I find myself dreaming about what I’m going to do next instead of staying in the moment and loving what I am doing. It’s equally hard to drop my dreaming, scheming, planning when the time for making is over and the time for mothering begins. Staying in the moment is the only thing that helps those transitions, so I am working hard on developing that habit. This is the last lyric from Monument I will share, because it resonates so strongly with me. “So that when the moment comes / I can say I did it all with love / love / love”. All the creativity and talent in the world are no good to me if my boys don’t know that I love them unreservedly, unconditionally. I have to do good work, stay in the moment, and love hard. Those are my goals. It’s going to be a great school year. Thank you, Robyn. xoxoxoxo